Like carrots dangling

I've been dreading work...or rather just going to work. Almost every morning, I wonder if I can call in sick or if I can call to apply for urgent leave. Then, in the afternoon, I either plan to apply leave some day soon, or wonder when I can change job & completely leave the scene.

Yes, morale is low. Not very sure why. Is it the new work arrangement? Is it that I don't find the work challenging or satisfying? Is it I'm lost juggling three or more things at any one time? Really no idea what's the cause.

I've always thought I don't work for money. I mean I've always thought money would never motivate me to do something I no longer want to do.

Not until today....

The recent bonus certainly made me happier. But that's reward for last year's work, so it's still not much of a motivation to help me in my current work. Then, last night I realised, the annual increment is coming. That did make my eyes brighten a little bit..kaching! And tell me who doesn't want to have more money?!

So, money is so-so, work is so-so....I really shouldn't complain. Maybe all I really need is to go on leave for awhile. Oh, c'mon...I really shouldn't be thinking so much about utilising my leave....HELP.