Monday, February 22, 2010

Being thankful in the midst of disappointment

I was all prepared to thank God, family and friends for the supporting during my ACCA journey. 22 Feb 2010, supposedly, it was to end. But...found out that I pass one paper and failed the other.

Of course, the disappointment feeling is greater than the being thankful feeling right now. Suddenly, all the cons of not making it this round is dominating my mind. E.g. having to study and go for exams during maternity leave, stuck in this job and have to postpone job switch plans, spend more money, what if i fail at the fourth attempt?

But a tiny voice reminds me to go back to my initial feelings of thankfulness. I did pass the paper I dreaded the most. What I have left is just a "small" hurdle. Not this time, the next time then.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

First day of CNY

It is not the same without him -- my Dad. Miss him. CNY is all about reunion, and it's quite difficult to face the reality that we are without him this year.

Don't know what's wrong with me lately. Can get quite emo easily. Maybe it's the crazy hormones.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Bittersweet endings

My boss' last day today. I feel kinda bittersweet. Though for a really long time, I've avoided deep conversations and lunches with him. I must say, he has been a very kind boss to me. And in his closing speech, he's right, what really counts, is the relationships in the organisations. And I think he lived up to what he believed.

Other than he's work quirks and sometimes irritating comments, he has been more than a good boss on a personal basis, making it to my wedding, my dad's funeral, and genuinely showing concern for my well-being. Of course, he's also the one who gave me the opportunity to work where I am now, and has given me the opportunity to learn from him.

The sadness comes from knowing that one chapter of life has closed, and who knows what the next holds. New boss may have his/ her good and bad points. The happiness is from knowing that he is moving on to better and greater things with and for God. And that he's moving on joyfully, not with regrets or worries. It is something to rejoice about to be able to retire in this manner.

May God bless boss and his family each step of their way.